16 Jan 12.12.12 – THE EVENING
I’m continually blown away by the lovely responses to my films of our family life… and I’m very thankful to my family for allowing me to capture their every movement and share it for others to see… without their permission I wouldn’t be able to create this kind of work, and then inspire others to do the same.
Putting out such personal work is huge, and I, by no means find it easy… it’s vulnerable to the core… in a couple of ways.
First, the content… this is our life, who we are, the things we do and love… no it’s not the nitty gritty of dirty laundry, grumpiness, arguments, unclean bathroom, tears… Indeed, we have plenty of that going on here on a daily basis, but I don’t feel the need to capture that, let alone share it publicly. Here lies the beauty of making these films, is that you focus on the good, the details of stuff that mean something to you… the little things that are ordinary now, but will be amazing memory triggers as time fades.
When we focus on the good, the little things to be grateful for, it can have huge power in shifting how we approach all aspects of our life. I know this to be true, having spent 365 days looking for beauty to be grateful for… a project that changed so much of my life.
There is also vulnerability sharing this work because the technical side of shooting and editing can put you up for criticism… I don’t profess to know it all about making films, I only know what works for me, through trial and error, through exploring by myself and I’m learning more everyday… This is what I share in my courses, information I have learnt about what works, that’s all I can do. I want to be better, and each project I start and finish leads me in that direction… and then I share what I know for others to use in their creative lives.
This final part of 12.12.12 was the hardest for me to put together, and I nearly didn’t do it, because technically it drove me crazy!. We had just moved into our new basement flat, and it’s dark here!… really dark, oh so DARK even in the day. SO I really dislike the colour & sharpness of the footage… I’m also limited by only editing iMovie, which doesn’t offer enough in processing, but this is something I’m going to tackle in future projects…
So instead of giving up and leaving the footage to sit on my hard drive, I battled through it, ignoring the demons in my head that it’s not good enough and settling on… THIS IS OUR STORY… hanging out of the sofa watching Masterchef, secret silly dancing to camera when no ones watching, the conversations about wishing, climbing up the walls… it’s the stuff that I want to remember… that’s whats important and that’s what a Time Capsule is for, right?
Thank you to everyone that shared their 12.12.12 with me and the group that gathered… I learnt so much from you… mostly to valve community, and how we can so inspire and support each other to make the work that moves us… and this makes me excited for my new course A JOURNEY, as we’re going to be doing plenty of that!